She turned quickly from the slamming door banishing what felt like a life time of memories in a single instant. Within that single moment the entire world had come to a screeching, cataclysmic halt. He was gone, in the forever kind of way. Some things one cannot apologize for. This was indeed one of those moments. Pride covers a multitude of sins, and sometimes when you win, you lose.

        She had let him get to close, dangerously close, the kind of close that opens the soul. That spills out the fragrant delicate blossoms of the heart. Four little words had been the death nail to the whole relationship. Four little words that were a complete lie. ” I don’t love you”, she’d screamed it with all the force she could muster. Knowing that she loved him, knowing that he loved her, that he’d burned every bridge that would take him away from her.

                   This however is the ending.. and all the best stories start at the beginning. Even those such as this one that ends in heart-break. Never you fear, for even in the deepest dark one can always find the light….

 

Ok so maybe that title has nothing to do with anything.. but what can I say Jefferson Airplane is on the radio at work. Thats right.. I’m at work.. where I do all my best blogging.. because I have an over abundance of free time.

                    The TA… over and done with. I apparently wasn’t emotionally available enough! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA *coughs, rolls around* PUH-lease.. Clearly a candidate for the mensa convention he is not. In other news.. school sucks..

SL… SL is magically fun again.. I suppose I was just in a funk. It happens. Comes with the Kray-zay.

Lots of new hair, lots of new clothes. Lots of more shopping yet to do..

Special Note: XStreet rules just in case you didn’t know. It allows me to hunt for cheap things and sale items. Makes my life easier and wouldn’t you know it.. no lag. So yeah that rawks my pixel sawks.

Tonight… H&S from 6ish to 8 SL time.. if you are an adoring fan of the one the only Aria Fouroux, be there or be square kidlings.. I’ll say inappropriate things.. tip people into loving me.. and misbehave. You know, the usual.

Speaking of clubs, it looks as if H&S (thats Hooters and Shooters for all of you out of the loop, (( In fact get the hell out my blog if you aren’t in the loop)) ..) is my favorite club hands down. The DJ’s are good, the owner kicks major ass.. and is waaay hawt. Not to mention the sim is all prettified. So if you don’t go there all the time.. or ever.. WTF is wrong with you!?!?!?

Special Note: I wonder if their are perks for plugging one’s favorite club?

You can’t go wrong with this club, its nothing but fun. Unlike a lot of other clubs, while others might be fun they don’t maintain high enough traffic to keep things in high gear all the time, or they are the over crowded super club crawling with Newbs ( *cough cough* cheating on their SL partner Alts) Which are lame. I like a mostly full, fun club with as little lag as possible.. Ah yes the dream. I could compare things.. but I know a few peoples who are on that already. I’ll just keep making random comments.. why because thats how I roll.

So untill next time kids.. always pack clean underwear and never shower with a wolverine.

-TdS

 

“Goodnight And Go”

Say goodnight and go.
Woah woah. Woah woah

Skipping beats, blushing cheeks I am struggling
Daydreaming, bed scenes in the corner café
And then i’m left in bits recovering tectonic tremblings
You get me every time

Why d’ya have to be so cute?
It’s impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It’s bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go

Follow you home, you’ve got your headphones on and you’re dancing
Got lucky, beautiful shot you taking everything off watch the curtains wide open
Then you fall in the same routine flicking through the TV relaxed and reclining
And you think you’re alone…

Why d’ya have to be so cute?
It’s impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It’s bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go

One of these days, you’ll miss your train and come stay with me
We’ll have drinks and talk about things, any excuse to stay awake with you
You’ll sleep here, i’ll sleep there, but then the heating may be down again
at my convenience
we’d be good, we’d be great together.

[Sigh]
Go!

Say goodnight and go,
why’s it always always
goodnight and go
Darling not again
Goodnight and go

Neither, just going to pop in and out, no major commitments and I’m going to have fun. I also intend to get back to doing what I set out to do in the first place, exploring SL.  So without any further gilding of said lily here we go.. Topic numero uno

To free or not to free?

               Once upon a time when I was a little spiderlette my momma told me “Sugar you don’t turn down anything for free” I have since learned that while free seems a wonderful and totally awesome idea. In truth you tend to get what you pay for. This same philosophy tends to ring true in SL. When you come across a cavalcade of freesomes, inspect, and for god’s sake try on before you throw it in the keep pile. Its one thing to have an inventory of 19 million awesome things but you’ll only shoot yourself later when you realize that you “own” 90 percent crap.

     Whilst I understand that those boots were free realize that they look like someone’s seven-year old got a hold of Microsoft paint and made themselves a shoe. Shoes, Skins, Hair, and Jeans are my hot button items. If you have at least one of each of these that is decent quality you can do no wrong.

But Spider I don’t have linden to spend?!?!?

Well then.. don’t try to act like the Queen of Sheba when you look like a oompaloopmha in high waters and cement block shoes with a static mop on your head.

Skins: The Basics..

       I like having different skins, they make things fun, and can also be bought at reasonable prices and even a few free ones are lurking about.

In freebies: The Tiffany skin and shape.. good stuff wore it for months when I was a wee avatar.

The Cheap: Frick, pretty good stuff, nice makeup, not a whole of body shading, but you’re looking at under 100L

The rest: Beauty Avatar, Redgrave, Alady.. the 9 billion other skin stores out there, demo it, walk around, ask your friends think long and hard.. almost a thousand linden is a lot of moohlaka.

Hair: The Awesome, the good and the WTF!!!

Numero Uno.. Avoid Freebie hair from a FREEBIE store. Items given away at a store that specializes in hair are good. But the ”Free Hair thats just floating around is just plain UGLY!

Price: 150-300L This seems to be the average price range for all the best in hair. It’s really not all that bad. Magika, Analog Dog, Truth, Mirai Style, Fri.day, all really great hair.

Note: Don’t be locked into one color. Experiment, change it up. You might surprise yourself.

Shoes: Moody Stilletto, Creamshop, Reboot, tons of places,  taboo, digit darks, canimal.. all awesome for shoes. 100-2000 thats the price range, but its totally worth it

Jeans:

Freebie… Prozac stuff isn’t bad

League, Canimal, mischief, Night and Day, Fri.Day, Decoy.. I could go on for days. Most good jeans have prims to make them look like regular jeans instead of high water bell bottoms.

Conclusion: Buyer beware, if something doesn’t look worth 500L DON”T BUY IT!! Be a savvy shopper in SL like you would in RL. Most of all have fun, and remember kids,  the log may be cheaper than the mule, but its always slower!

Hush now close out the light
No need to speak
Time will slow when we surrender
Whisper now over the edge
Head rush
Are you still breathing
Shiver
Taking me higher

Stay
Darkness take over now
Stay
No thinking twice
Stay for tonight
The sound of your heart racing faster for me
Is what will save me

Whisper soft
Anticipating this eclipse
Pulling you closer
Melting now covered in silk
Letting go into the stillness
Head rush careful don’t drop me
Shiver taking me higher

Stay
Darkness take over now
Stay
No thinking twice
Stay for tonight
The sound of your heart racing faster for me
Is what what will save me
Faster for me
Feeling you save me

Memorize every moment (Breathe)
Letting this love take you over (Breathe)
Just breathe and stay

Stay
Darkness take over now
Stay
No thinking twice
Stay for tonight
The sound of your heart racing faster for me
Is what will save me
Faster for me
Feeling you save me
Stay

Unsew my seams, look inside if you dare.
Do you still like what you’re seeing now?
Secrets and sins all exposed, spilling out.
Am I still safe here on this fragile ground.

Inside out before you now.
Bare these bones and lay me down.
This suicide feels so alive.
Will you take me as I am.
Inside out.

Moving in silence, feel the rush hold me down.
Is this too real what you’re feeling now.
Ecstasy rising, giving in, no thinking.
Love will you save me or just turn away.

Inside out before you now.
Bare these bones and lay me down.
This suicide feels so alive.
Will you take me as I am.
Inside out.

Up on this high wire.
I might just come crashing down.
Reach out for me ’cause I am.

Inside out before you now.
Bare these bones and lay me down.
This suicide feels so alive.
Will you take me as I am.
Inside out.

I have it.. its rancid..

Going to see this with “The Dude” and some other nerds.. review to follow

So we had a loverly cold front sweep in this weekend. It’s amazing, the dinner with the cute TA guy.. was ok. We talked I laughed, he smiled, I smiled, no awkward silence. It was completely and totally chill.. it was awful.. I felt no giddy nervous excitement.. I didn’t feel the need to impress this guy. Is that a bad thing? I don’t know. He wants to go on a second “date”  The first date was cool though, he took me out for sushi because I love it.. (he apparently doesn’t.. sad face right there) but it was still kinda sweet. Also the well read super interestingness of him faded as the night went on.. he passes for well read in an academic setting, you know where I only half pay attention to what he says because I’m too busy being profound in my own way.

I know this is what I get for being blinded by roguish good looks a half smirk smile and totally amazing blue-green eyes.. I fell for the wrapping and realized to late that there were stale corn flakes in the box. Will I go out with him again and be a complete idiot over him.. prolly.. cause thats how I roll.

This giving up second life business is waaaaay easier than I imagined. I gave up my land and house first. This enabled me to no longer feel any attachment to the game what so ever. Now all my friends.. well thats the tricky business.. I think I had begun to sever the ties with the vast majority of those whom I considered my SL friends quite some time ago. I honestly feel better. Was SL making my RL more complicated and otherwise not fun? Possibly. Will I go back? No clue.. I might.. but you see I don’t have a reason to be there. I’m not a DJ or a builder or in some complicated romance of pixels. I’m free as a bird… I was free all along  I guess, I just didn’t realize it.

                         The nice guy TA asked me to dinner today, I said yes. He’s really cool, and a complete dork, but what the heck the old girl isn’t getting any younger. Take a chance.. My biggest downfall in the entire world is that when presented with chances to do things truly awesome.. I don’t.. I let my pessimism and doubt get in the way. Not this time. I’m tired of not taking an active role in my own life.. things will be better.. It’s almost 8.. gotta run, Mr. Well-read- makes me laugh till it hurts- 6 feet 3 inches of red headed glory ( we call that irony in the writing business)- and his Harley (he rides a motorcycle, I know awesome right), will be here any minute.. wish me luck kids..